I'd like to eat what you're eating there

If I could wish for anything, I want unwavering loyalty, and someone that doesn't give up on me. And an encouraging smile when I need it.

Anyway, I was wondering about typed words. I make my living writing things down (and then speaking them out loud). I have a dream of writing the great Malaysian script, for that great Malaysian film. But my experience in typed words are not always smooth. I broke up with my first boyfriend on YM, and a (former?) friend hasn't been speaking for months to me cos of something I said in a text message.

So maybe I should stop typing when I'm angry?

Then again, I am happy (eventually) that I broke up with that guy. I'm polite and cordial with him now but I have no wish to go out with him again. And I think this (former) friend was a waste of my time, in her judgemental, self-centred way. But oh there I go doing the thing I told myself I wouldn't do when I start a blog. No, she's great in her on way, a truly wonderful person and I wish her all the best. Afterall, who I am to judge a person as judgemental?

Hmmph.. I just stopped myself from typing what I was thinking. But that's cos I'm not fucking angry now :)

Sappy Stories and Happy Endings

I just saw He's Just Not That Into You with Geraldine, and I think it's alright. There's a happy ending, embarrassing scenarios, good looking people, and a chasing scene. Well not really chasing, like in regular romantic comedies, but that scene when the characters have that moment of epiphany, and they realise who they're in love with all this time, and proceed to run after the object of their affection.

There's also some really cringe-worthy scenes that I just can't bear to watch. Seriously, I was covering my eyes like it was a horror movie, but I guess it all worked out in the end. I like the chemistry between Gigi and that Justin Long dude. It was quite obvious from the start, and they really are cute together.

Man that Justin Long came a long way from playing that dork in Ed. He's really adorable here.

And there was a part of me that wanted Bradley Cooper to end up with Scarlett Johansson, but that's probably residue from the "Edward" incident. I carried a torch for that one long after it ended. But I always carry a torch for people long after it was over, whatever it was that happened anyway. I haven't heard from "Edward" since it ended, and if things go the way I want them to, he hasn't heard anything about me either.

Looking back, is it bad that I, the audience, can't remember the character's name? I can remember their real names, the one that's in the gossip columns. The characters can be called Jamilah Kalsom or Abu Buah Berangan, and it wouldn't have mattered. Another thing, Bradley Cooper was in Alias, which stars Jennifer Garner who's married to Ben Affleck. Justin Long is, or was dating Drew Barrymore and the rest, I don't have that six degrees of separation info at the top of my head.

Yeah, that's something to be grateful for.

But Before Perth

I have decided that I'm not going to Jakarta later this year. The trip was planned when things were fine but now, it's not so fine. Considering the fact that I don't particularly like going to Indonesia, and the only reason I agreed on going is because I was trying not to offend someone, and then now, that someone seems to be offended by my mere existence, so why bother?

"Yeah, I don't think I'm going to enjoy the trip, so you two have fun ya?"

It's the bane of advanced booking. I wonder how many people make plans months and months in advance, only for things to end up like crap when it's time to go? Relationships end, arguments ensue and cold war is brewing like North Korea and it's "satellite". At least the good thing about advanced booking is that the ticket's cheap. So screw it, I'm not going to suffer five days of hell with people who don't give a shit about me.

I've been consciously avoiding looking up things about Jakarta, but I must say my curiosity is piqued as I was looking for a photo to put on the blog. Damn it! I guess the next best thing is to get someone else to come with me, or well, just pray things will work out with those two. I highly doubt it though, and I highly doubt the first option too.

Surf's up

A friend of mine (let's call him Jesus) is on a month-long trip to Europe. Apart from the usual "I wish you well, have fun and come back in one piece!" wishes, most of all, what I wished for, was that I can go with him. Not him specifically, cos that just brings to light all sorts of issues, but just to get out and about and smell a different kind of air. It sounds weird, but air really does smell different from one place to another.

So yeah, I wish I was with him. If only I had the money.

Anyway, he's doing this couchsurfing thing, where you stay at someone's house, sleep on their couch and you get to hang out with the host too. It's on a voluntary basis, so you don't have to pay. To be nice, you should make them dinner, or wash their dishes or something. Apparently it's a great way to meet people, you have someone to guide you around, plus you get invited to parties and stuff.

Jesus highly recommends it, but some of my friends at work were very skeptical about it. It's a trust issue, which I understand. What if they steal your stuff once you come back from work? My excuse is that I have privacy issues. Sleeping in someone's house, a stranger that I don't know? I have trouble even watching TV with another person. And I can imagine myself looking up at the ceiling while lying on the couch, wondering what's the deal with all the figurines/naked posters/flowers/beer can collection/empty walls.

Then again, it is just an excuse. I haven't quite decided on the couchsurfing thing. I might give it go. I dunno.



I wanted to put a picture of my couch, but they both came out ugly. This Ektorp sofa, I want it actually. So it might be my couch, someday.

Shoals or Rot

I'm still undecided about whether to go to Shoalwater Islands Marine Park or not. I'm pretty sure I'd skip going to Rottnest to go there but I kinda want to go to Rottnest as well. So how? Let's do a comparison check.

Why Rottnest? Well, cos Lonely Planet sorta recommended it.

I got the impression that it's a laid-back, easy going island with wide empty beaches and blue seas all around. I was thinking of renting a bike and just ride all the way and stop when I see a nice spot to have a picnic and a swim. Y'know, just chill, maybe read a book. Or not.

Why Shoalwater? Cos I love animals, and I've been watching nature documentaries since I was a kid, and it'd be nice to watch all the wildlife for real.

But there doesn't seem to be a lot info on the place, apart from the discovery tours, swimming with dolphins and all that. Frankly, I don't fancy swimming there. If it's cold enough for seals to live in that place it must be REALLY cold, otherwise seals would just live in Malaysia.

But I'm going in the summer, would the seals and penguins and dolphins still be there? Do I have to take the tours, and is there a bridge to the island or I need to take a ferry, and how much is the ferry? This is what's wrong with the sites about the place, they don't tell me what I want to know!

The Hazards of Love

I simply adore the new Decemberists album.

It's called the Hazards of Love, and all 17 songs is really one LOOOONG song. If you're burning it to a CD, make sure there aren't any gaps between tracks, otherwise it'll just ruin the whole effect.

It's true, I'd play the cd and when I look back at the player it's like, "Eh, track 6 already? Waah"

Apparently, the album is a story of girl meets shape-shifter boy, and mommy disapproves. I could be wrong, I wasn't paying attention when I read the album review. And I wanted to read the lyrics for the songs but I haven't had time. Considering that I usually listen to music when I'm in the car, looking at lyrics sheets while driving is really not advisable, no?

edit - okay, I've listened to the album while reading the lyrics and it's even better than what I thought. I adored it and now I absolutely loved it! The ending's kinda sad, but oh so beautiful. I had a picture in my head of watching this being played out on stage with fawns and rivers and dead children taking revenge on their dad. Please, please come true!